All last night all today, I haven’t been able to get that stupid guy out of my head: the one who told me that I had dropped my smile. Every time I run through that event in my mind, it just makes me angrier and angrier.

How does he know that I don’t have a perfectly good reason to be frowning? What if my sister had just died? I should have told him that: "Oh, I’m sorry I’m frowning. I’ll try to be more cheerful about my sister’s violent rape and murder yesterday. Thanks for the advice."

Why was he intruding on my personal space? Is it because I look shy? An easy target? I sometimes think about what happens to school bullies once they leave school. I think this guy is the answer to that question.

What’s it to him whether I smile or not? Here’s the answer: he didn’t care whether I was smiling, he just wanted to make a fool of me for his friends. What kind of asshole does that?

I assume we work in the same building (but not at the same company), so even though I’ll mostly be working from home after the first couple weeks, I’m bound to run into him sometime soon. When that happens, what should I do? Confront him? Figure out where he works and what he drives, then start arranging minor but annoying property damage?

What really pisses me off is that this guy probably hasn’t thought about this event since it happened. He probably does it twenty times a day. But he’s spoiled a full day for me, and I can’t focus properly on tonight.

Speaking of tonight, though, I have at least thought the basics through. Flowers, restaurant, condoms.

Also, I practiced putting condoms on, too, so so I won’t screw that up. I can’t say that I’m much of a fan of how they feel, and at least a couple of times I’ve gotten hairs pulled as I rolled the damn things on. Maybe I should shave my penis?