I went by the HR woman’s office twice more today before I finally found her in her office. I told her that I had been looking for her because I had made an embarrassing error and wanted to rectify it before it became a real problem.

The HR person said, "What do you mean one embarrassing error?" As it turns out, the reason she’s been out most of the day is because she’s been talking with Jane, Elaine, and the company’s law firm.

You know what’s weird? My company, a law firm full of lawyers, is represented by a different law firm. That’s not exactly a vote of self-confidence.

The HR woman told me that Jane and Elaine were evaluating suing me and the company, but what they really wanted was for me to no longer be at the company.

I asked if it would be OK for me to resign instead of be fired. She said that she had already asked Jane and Elaine that question, and that they considered that an acceptable solution.

I asked if I could apologize to Elaine, and the HR person said absolutely not and that I should be very careful to not try to contact her in the future, for my own good. She also told me I should get some counseling.

I don’t know why, but when she said that, I teared up and I couldn’t stop my hands from shaking. I think she thought I was sad, but really I was just doing everything I could to not shout, "All I did was tell one fucking stupid joke!"

Obviously, it wasn’t the time or place for saying that.

If the HR woman had known that I stole her 7" LCD slide show picture frame during one of the times I came by her office today when she wasn’t there, she probably wouldn’t have liked me any better.

Anyway, I was escorted to my office, filled a couple boxes with my stuff under the eye of security, and then out of the building. We didn’t say anything to each other, which was a relief. I didn’t want to explain myself to him, and I really didn’t want to hear his opinion of me.

So, all things considered, I guess this hasn’t been as bad of a day as it could have been. Sure, I found out the woman I’ve had a crush on was considering suing me, but instead I just lost my job.

Here are the thoughts that keep circling inside my head.

1. I wish I hadn’t spent so much money on a new computer.

2. Now I don’t have an excuse to not go see my brother.

3. I didn’t like my job, but I like not having it even less.

4. The HR woman is the first and only person I have spoken with today.

Isolation Score: 11