I Don’t Know How to Quit This Blog
Posted by harlan on 08 Jan 2008 at 09:44 am | Tagged as: talking to the void
I thought writing this blog would help me open up and maybe fix some things that were wrong with me. But I’m still the same person inside, only now it feels like a bunch of people are staring at me while I’m inside a glass cage wearing nothing but underwear. Usually a particular mood prompts me to write something, and it feels right, and then when I go back to read it a few hours later I get sick to my stomach. What was I thinking! That happens more often than not, and the weird thing is that I know it’s going to happen with this post. At least I know I have the optionĀ of deleting the whole blog and making it all go away.
And then there are the people who leave comments. A lot of you are nice, but Lyle Lanley, if that’s your real name, what’s your problem? You’re a butthole. Only butthole may not be the right word because it doesn’t capture your sense of superiority, so I guess I could call you buttholier-than-thou. That’s my new name for you, Lyle Lanley!
And Eufemiano Fuentes, maybe it’s not such a good idea to accuse total strangers of being Jame Gumb. I have a feeling that Eufemiano Fuentes really is its name, and if it keeps it up, maybe some nut out there is going to make it put the lotion in the basket.
And Leland, maybe you’re the super freak. Did you stop to think about that? Why don’t you try saying something nice for a change?
And then there are all the people who think I’m not real. How do you think that makes me feel? I’ll tell you. It makes me feel like a cipher in the snow.
Isolation Score: 8
maybe a blog is not the proper format for you? try writing in a private diary, or manifesto if you will.
that way, we won’t know your thoughts until after the trial is over
that’s what sucks about a blog. It’s out there for everyone to see. If you are real, which I still doubt, my advice is– stop stealing stuff. get some professional help. ask for some anti-depressants. those would be positive steps toward feeling better, not writing in a blog and/or stealing crap.
Regardless Harlan.. your interesting.. I find myself checking your blog a few times an hour to see if you posted something new. Dont stop blogging.. I think it’s helping you.. or will help you… step out of that box… break your shell or whatever..
hey,
i like your blog. well, i don’t know if it is real or not but i don’t really care.
anyway, don’t stop writing. if you can’ t stand these idiots comments, simply turn them off??
i am convinced there are many people who can identify with what you write and like your blog.
I think your blog is a cry for help. Give it up if you must, but GO GET HELP!
You make decent money, why not go see a therapist? I have a friend who suffered from severe, almost suicidal depression and was wise enough to get help, and it has paid off for him in all areas of his life.
He metamorphosed from a Jehova’s Witness to an athiest to an Orthodox Jew in the process, but that’s a story for another time.
I keep checking too. Because I care about what happens to you. Everyone deserves happiness, and it’s hard to read the stuff you post and wish you would realize that no one and nothing is stopping you but yourself. I suppose I keep checking back hoping that you will take steps beyond this blog to reinvent your life.
I keep checking back in to see if anyone has come fowward with the truth about this blog!
I’ll check in.
Think your isolation meter is a hoot !
i like your blog too. found it through the bloggie awards.