No More Mister Nice Guy!
Posted by harlan on 19 Nov 2007 at 04:01 pm | Tagged as: talking to the void
I saw her again in the hallway. I probably shouldn’t tell this story because it might make me seem kind of weird, but I think when I finish telling the story, you’ll understand why I have to fight back vomit whenever I see this woman. First, a little background. About a year or so ago, I decided that I was going about relationships all the wrong way. On those rare occasions when I found myself talking to a member of the opposite sex, all I tried to do was say something nice. It dawned on me that I was taking the wrong approach. Being nice may be a way to make friends, I suppose, but it’s no way to take a lover. I needed to be assertive and confident, not meek and kindly. After yet another night of tossing and turning, I vowed that I was going to break out of my shell. I was going to make myself known!
So I rode my bike into work full of aggressive energy. I took my bowl of Fiber One cereal into the kitchen to get some milk out of the community fridge, and when I was walking back to my cube, it happened — I saw her. I don’t know what her name is, nor do I know which department she works in. All I know is that she’s the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen, and I’m frankly surprised that I see her at the office rather than on television, which is where she belongs.
She looked at my bowl of Fiber One cereal, which I admit looks like a Purina product, and said, “Are you going to eat that?” Now if she had said that to me the day before or even a couple hours later, I would have reacted in my normal way, which is to scurry away as fast as possible and then think of an appropriate response in the safe confines of my cubicle. But as I said, I’d worked myself into a tizzy, so here’s what I said:
“Shut up!”
My response startled both of us. I walked away quickly and got so light-headed with fear and excitement that I could barely stand. Popping open the door of the bathroom, I collapsed to the floor and vomited. It’s a silly detail to point out, but I accidentally threw up in the women’s bathroom, which made it worse somehow. So now whenever I see this woman, I try to ignore her. I can taste vomit in the back of my throat, and I tingle inside.
Isolation score: 4
I know this may make me look like a total jerk… but I haven’t laughed so hard for weeks and weeks. Thanks for sharing that story!!! (Even if you didn’t do it for comedic purposes). If it makes you feel better, there are a lot of people who are in the same social boat… I can totally remember conversations and interactions with people from a long long time ago that I wish had gone differently. BTW - I linked to your site from www.fatcyclist.com You should read his web - he’s hilarious and so are his “groupies”.
Another reader from fatcyclist.com. So you are a bike commuter? Do you ride to work regularly, or just once in a while? It’s hard to imagine feeling alone and unconnected on a bike.
I think you can feel alone on a bike, sorry to say. Like when you see other people riding in pairs or in big groups while you’re out by yourself.
LOL! I was dying throughout this entire post. Just found this blog about an hour ago and felt compelled to backtrack the archives to gain a background sense. Haha…wow.
This shit is abso-fuckin-lutely HILARIOUS! Continue writing , thanks!
Weird, wild stuff.